I think I need to leave town again. I’m getting too used to finding money and keeping up a drug habit that I don’t want to have. I’m a little afraid. I had never stopped breathing before. Now I’m in a lot of pain and I want more of what put me in this pain in the first place to get me out. Send help.
My monkey food. Been trying to eat this bowl of cereal all day. #banana #hungry #headaches #tastesgoodsoggy
Cant sleep. Keep having talks with you in my head. There’s so much I want to say and so much I’ve come to realize. I’m trying to be a better person, I really am trying. I think I’m succeeding too, I can’t tell. I just wish I hadn’t taken you for granted. That’s my regret. I wish I hadn’t hurt you, that’s another one. I wish for someone to come and give you all the love you deserve. I wish I had given it to you when I had the chance. I’ve destroyed everything and even though this is the lonliest I’ve felt in a very very long time, I know it will pass. If I ever get what I had with you, the feeling, again I wont let it go. I wont take it for granted. I will love them and take care of them. I wish I had taken care of you. I’m so sorry. I don’t know how you knew. I wish I had known. I wish I could take everything back, and I wish you had never met me. You’d be better off and I wouldn’t have hurt you. You were so important and irreplaceable. I gave that away and hurt you in the process, and for what? To think about you constantly, to obsess over you, to miss you, to be a stupid idiot asshole. The damage is done though, and now I have to live with it. Everything will be fine in the end.
I’m going to be in an art show, I’m so excited and flattered.
I GOT A NEW PHONE!
first two pictures taken from my phone.
i love this. im so itchy and warm and uncaring and my tooth doesnt hurt a bit! the best part is i will be able to stay in a constant state of this for a goodwhile.
all this pain medicine is making me crazy. everything confuses me.